Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Weight Diary of a Fat Lady

Sometimes life gets in the way. I've missed a week. Thursday because there was a swim competition. Monday when I went to a hot dog, baseball game, and ate things I haven't eaten for years like snow cones, cotton candy and apple turnovers. I did a lot of walking and got my exercise - same amount I think. But still went home feeling guilty because I ate and envious because one co-worker had GIB and is really skinny and running around. HE ate an apple turnover.

There is so much I am learning about movement and exercise. It eliviates guilt. I no longer have to be ashamed because I can't get to it. It allows emotion. Jumping jacks in the water, dancing in the water, being down right angry because I am fat and being able to express it in and under the water by movement.

And going is getting easier, except when life gets in the way.